The Big Decision

As I have mentioned before I'm struggling under the fact that I'm completely in love with a straight guy at work.

I'm not gonna get into the details again, because to be honest, I really don't want to think about those at this moment, Its not a good place for me to be in.

The problem I'm having now is the uncertainty about what to do about this problem, because I'm so not changing jobs or doing anything gigantic and stressful.

A very good friend om mine (who is also gay) suggested that I come out to this guy, to just make the playing field more even, but I have my doubts about this, I'm not sure that this will accomplish anything beside maybe kill the friendship.

I think the problem here is the friendship, the fact that we are really good friends at work and that he works in the same department as me... I'm so confused at this stage... Ill have to really think about my next move, If any...

Cutie of the Week: Joseph Gordon-Levitt

Enjoy! :)

This is how I know...

This is how I know that god doesn't exist... let me explain...

I am madly in love with a guy at work, I have feeling like I have never had before. For the 1st time in my life, I understand love songs... the good ones and also the ones about broken hearts.

I had a broken heart once before, but this is on a completely different level. I can't even put in into words.. madly in love but under a blanket of sorrow.

So why am I sad? easy... my coworker is straight and he doesn't even know that I'm gay.

Cutest guy ever... the way he speaks and interacts with other people, the way he carries himself, the confidence, but also the humbleness.. and the good looks doesn't hurt either.

Bringing me to my point about god not existing... How could a fair god allow a person to be gay and basically guarantee a life of pain and sadness? I don't know, it just doesn't make sense... it just doesn't make sense...

One Foot on the Outside

I'm Gay!.. there I said it. Now that we have the formalities out of the way, I can tell you the purpose of this blog. :)

Recently I have found that I use a lot of my friends' time complaining about things, about how messed up my life is (in a sort of "boy meets world" sort of way).

So the purpose of this blog is basically to have a let out point for all these feelings and questions.

I don't know if anybody is gonna read this, but then again, that isn't really the purpose of this blog. The only reason I do not make it a private blog is so that other guys in the same boat might find comfort in know they not alone with this constant feeling of not belonging.

Welcome to "The Closet Door" blog :)