All work, no play...

Half passed twelve at night.. no end in sight yet.. This is why I'm not involved with anybody. I work way to hard and wont settle for giving somebody only 10% of my attention.

Financially the long hours is starting to show results and job security, but as I'm realizing more and more, money doesn't solve my emotional needs.

I need to start taking control of my life... the question is just how.. how do I start reducing overtime hours without looking lazy? Well, I think I will just ease into it :)

Oh yes, I found a new thing to add to the list od things I want Mr Perfect to be... He can sing like Nat King Cole... HAHAHA.. yeah right, like thats gonna happen.. but I can dream.

I must say.. I'm really concerned about how little gay Asian guys seems to be in Cape Town.

Poison To Myself

I just realized that I am poisoning my own mind with these thought of love for somebody that can obviously never love me the way I love him.

The big question is now just how to get over this, because the more I think about it, the more I feel like a total loser that will never be happy and better off.

O ja, I also decided not to tell him, because I value the friendship too much and I'm not sure how he will react to me being.. well.. me

I know a lot of people probably reckon that I just need to get laid and that will solve all my problems, but I'm not even looking for sex at the moment.. I'm simply looking for the security of being in a relationship with somebody I truly love and that truly loves me.