It's Been a While

So, it's been a while.. things have happened and things have changed and some things didn't change...

A quick breakdown would sound like this.. met an awesome guy.. fucked it up, met another awesome guy, moved too fast (got laid on 1st date) got scared, fucked it up... have 2 guys lined up and now I'm too scared to commit to anything.

I met this one guy online 3 weeks ago, he sounds perfect, he's closer to my age and he wants to just take things very chilled.. sounds awesome right... well I've been avoiding him for the last week.. simply because I'm too scared that I will fuck it up again.. and I really can't hurt more people at this point..

Work is still great.. meh.. which matters less and less these days..

I always thought I would end up alone.. and the reality is that is probably still gonna end up true.. but I haven't felt this alone ever.. but I simply cant get myself to make a connection with anyone... except with the ones I know I don't have a chance.. because that's some sort of safety zone I created for myself..

Oh, and I accepted a job at a new company.. the same place my ex co-worker works.. yep.. that one.